While working with Cirque du Soleil it was discovered that I had a degenerated disc between L3 and L4 in my lower back. With the support of the amazing physical therapists and physiotherapists we came up with a regimen of exercises that would enable me to live relatively pain free. It is just over a decade since this discovery and I have recently made some changes in my life, some changes in my routine. The result is I am experiencing some pain. So now I search to find a way to get this pain to leave my body. While some may suffer silently I have chosen to write about it ... my way. Pain The result of toil and wear has born in me a parasitic presence that feeds on my soul. Constantly it gnaws on hope and joy. Eroding all but the want of its departure. wearing away, wearing away. I long for its absence. A moments rest. I would accept nothing, if it meant being devoid of this. Simplicity no longer exists. This parasite has attached itself to simple, making it anything but. Who was I before? Will I ever be again? You are not my friend. Go away. Your presence does not make me stronger. Go away. Only in your absence will I be stronger. I could use that strength to fight you now. As silently as you arrived, will you please leave?
